WED: Nothing really happened Wed besides getting my ass handed to me again in tennis. Taking on this new hobby is exhilarating. No really. Never felt better. Im liking this change...
THURS: Work. Sleep. Eat. Garbage...oh wait. Had lunch at El Cid with my Dirtbag, AKA Beth. Was really nice to see her. Its been a long time, feels like forever since. She informed me she is doing well and happy in her life. Shes buying a house with a man she has been dating. Just really, honestly, so happy for her. Tragic life can turn into something beautiful with the right amount of patience and time.
I admit, i was jealous. But it will happen. Im not worried.
I was sad too, I feel like I am really loosing her the farther she moves away. I know its not true, just politics. All my love....
FRI: Today was a good day. A great day actually. So the NATO conference and practically placed me prisioner in my own home. There was a security guard who is monitoring my building 24/7.
Rules: No deliveries. No guests.
Not going to stop me of course.
Today was good. Work went quick and the weekend has arrived.
I came home and reconnected with an old friend. his name is Jamie. He just had another baby, kinda jealous. Not going to lie.
Drinks with Jimmy. Ha, weirdest thing happened. we were sitting outside having a cold one and a butterfly, get this, just landed on him. I know its not fascinating, but it was simple. Simple and perfect. Its a sign.
Ha, then the night ended with dancing and good friends. I couldn't have asked for anything better. i missed this. I missed just being me, simple. No worries. The warm night air. Reconnecting. No regrets. Just pure bliss. Its been a long time since I felt that. I hope to feel it again.
SAT: TENNIS!!!! DOG PARK!!! Police on every corner. Prison in my own city! LOL. Heading out to the burbs tonight to enjoy yet again another free evening. Enjoying the weather, eating Subway and smiling!
SAT: ie, So, I have really started to enjoy my weekends off. No more bar tending EVER> I'm giving up working in an industry that left me 10 years ago. To think I have been chasing this career? So much time wasted. So many useless memories. Eh, ok i admit it; I have regrets. Dont we all?
"So far away but still so near....."
