I am so sore....i got my ass whooped! LOL Day 4 shows promise.
Day 3: 9:58pm
Ming Choy and Riesling tonight on a roof deck. Then the rain came.
The conversations we have are amazing on the roof deck, us two. I miss her.
She always knows what to say. She tells me to seek out my soul mate. I told her no, no, he is gone for now. My heart falls and no one came to claim it. She laughed. My hands they re Strong but my knees were far too weak to be myself. That's how i lost him. that's how i fell to my feet. There was a side to me he never knew, things I said, games I played that were never true. I missed my chance. 13 years later.
Sharing my fondest memories with you, to her, she again, laughed. "one day........" Never true.
My life is changing very soon. Moving again in a few months. I can not wait to start my new Home. I'm still thinking of ways to scream out to my landlord I'm moving. I'm about to burst. Im scared of moving again in with someone, but this place here, it has memories, I want to forget.
Had another laser treatment today. This time, I cried. The pain was unbearable but i will never tell anyone that. I don't cry. 6 more treatments and hopefully we will be in the clear.
I was walking home from the treatment today, walking around in a sundress with a huge bandage on and i was sad. I walked by a little girl and her father. Adele, again on the play list playing in my ears ....Ah, Adele, you filthy whore.
I received a smile.
This little girl looked at me as if I was an Angel, or had one on my shoulder. Made my day. Fuck it, it made my week.....
