My Dreams and My Nightmares....

Growing up the one thing I learned from my Mother was to find one good man, love him, cherish him, and try to stay true to yourself. I envied my Mother for her love she showed my father. He deserved it. My untouched mind, like any other child, was taught that this was love. A good family, family dinners, family vacations, just plain ol' family time. I set out to quest for this....Thirty years later all that has come is Heartbreak, despair, and unfamiliar territory. I fell in Love with one thing, music, art and emotion. Collectively I have learned not from my childhood, but from myself to express that Love. I have learned that there is never a need to learn from other, but yet only from the constant mistakes we intend to make then, now and tomorrow. I could not imagine my life without the mistakes I have made. They have made me who I was, who I am, and eventually who I will be. The summer haze is gone, Glory days are here....

A woman's one weakness is the unexplained power of a man.
One man, two men, maybe three. A clear sheet prevails sometimes when it is too late.

I do not think one woman can be satisfied, we only settle.
Not this one,
at least not anymore.
Emotional pain is far worse that physical.
The heart can never heal, the body does.
As one door closes, they say, another opens? Not always.
Sometimes it is better in the end to stop reflecting, stop blaming yourself and just breathe.
Its not your fault...

I found this and it seems to be the perfect representation of my Life..... Mine got away time and time again, yet, that's just how it was suppose to be.....all due respect,
time to wake up......

heard

That you're settled down

That you

Found a girl

And you're

Married now

I heard

That your dreams came true.

Guess she gave you things

I didn't give to you

Old friend

Why are you so shy?

Ain't like you to hold back

Or hide from the light

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.

I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded

 

Never mind

 

I wish nothing but the best for you too

Don't forget me, I begged

I remember, you said

Sometimes it lasts in love

But sometimes it hurts instead.

You know how the time flies

Only yesterday

It was the time of our lives

We were born and raised

In a summer haze

Bound by the surprise

Of our glory days

 

Nothing compares

No worries or cares

Regrets and mistakes

They are memories made.

Who would have known

How bittersweet this would taste?

Dream and Nightmares