grateful...

I'm loose
Truth
I'm Like Inception; I play with your Brain he thinks
You will Loose

Grateful

-To Breathe
-To walk down this street and feel the cold breeze
-To feel the warm sun on my bare skin and shiver
-To be able to smile
-To be able to be touched
-To feel a hand on me: a hand with some kind of meaning behind it
-To have anxiety
-To have a heart that beats and not a heart that Breaks
-TO NOT BE SCARED OF SILENCE, MINUS THE MUSIC
-To not be Alone, again...

Laugh/Smile/Love/

When I woke up this morning, things were lookin' bad



Seem like total silence was the only friend I had


Bowl of oatmeal tried to stare me down... and won


And it was twelve o'clock before I realized


That I was havin' .. no fun



But fortunately I have the key to escape reality


And you may see me tonight with an illegal smile


It don't cost very much, but it lasts a long while


Won't you please tell the man I didn't kill anyone


No I'm just tryin' to have me some fun






Last time I checked my bankroll,


It was gettin' thin


Sometimes it seems like the bottom


Is the only place I've been


I Chased a rainbow down a one-way street... dead end


And all my friends turned out to be insurance salesmen







Well, I sat down in my closet with all my overalls


Tryin' to get away


From all the ears inside my walls


I dreamed the police heard


Everything I thought... what then?


Well I went to court


And the judge's name was Hoffman






No.  I'm just tryin' to have me some fun


Well done, hot dog bun, my sister's a nun

Sweep the Ashes Please

Wish you would have told me when I was young

When I had space to fill and someone to become,
'Cause darling I'm beside myself and I don't think that you

Know which one of me you are talking to

I'm tired of trying to make it up to you

Sweeping the ashes and hiding the truth

I'm tired of pretending everything's alright

Let me feel, let me feel what I'm feeling tonight

Wish you would have warned me before today

That you had fallen out, your love had gone away

Wish I could have stopped you before you left

It was a lesson that you left behind instead,

Taking the easy way out every time

Come with me.....

I ran outside, right into you, and instantly you said you knew

that you were the only one, I'd ever need to know

You said you knew the answers

and you said, that it's just another day

I came here with a voice, a chance to make a choice

an island of a mind, with bridges built with time

I'm not saving grace, use it all the time

sometimes it gets misplaced, denies that it is mine

and then I just can't see, I get lost in misery

Come with me

"I don't want your Love...."

Words. Funny little things. Everyone uses them. Few use them properly. Whether written, spoken or gestured, their power is intangible. Written in conversations or constitutions they can be freeing and protective. Used in society as labels they can be restrictive. We were taught as kids "sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me." Could anything be further from the Truth?

Words are Powerful, so I will choose mine wisely.

I know I dreamed you to be.........You were sent into Life.

The things You wanted,
I had them for you.
You know I can not let you just slide through my hands.

Watch me Suffer

'"I don't want your love,"
I told her.

I think she took it the wrong way.

Baby, baby, baby,
come back, come back...
you didn't let me finish.

I said I don't want your love
for tax purposes.

I don't want your love
bearing the twin corpses
of tradition and overpopulation
in its arms like
dusty wedding garments.

I don't want your love
steeped in the bitter waters of jealousy,
dripping self-righteous rage in my eyes
when I look astray
and no, I don't want you
to make my bed....

I want you to help me mess it up.

I want your love raw and bleeding,
pulsating, delirious.

I want your love to rip through your body
like electricity, your back arching spasmodically
your frame barely able to contain it all.

I want your love sevenfold:
once for each of my senses
and twice more to make sure
it takes it rightful place
among the Great Wonders of the World!

I want your love
dripping from my beard
when I come up for air,
and I resent the air,
I resent the fact that I need it
when all I want to do is plunge
back into the Great Divide.

I am facing the place we came from.

Tonight,
I want your love
to bloom like a rose,
and I fully expect your thorns
to mark my back.

I'll find your most ticklish spot
and slap it
while I bite your second most ticklish spot!

I'll stick my tongue so far into your ear
I'll taste brains,
and I'll make you cum them out!

I'll overload your senses,
caressing your every part with mine
until I'm like ten lovers,
and just between you, me,
and this room full of sexy people,
tonight I'll make you scream
louder that I can!

Tonight I want your love
sweating and panting,
collapsing, then napping
in the perfect moment
before conversation
becomes relevant again.

We have pushed each other's bodies
to the breaking point
and kept each other safe-
it feels like our lives
were in each other's hands.

This is love.

No monogamy,
no drama,
no bullshit....
just love.

Call it lust if you want,
but the rose
still smells
so sweet.

She said WHAT??! #3

Participants:


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ladyfriend123, britamcsheffery



Messages:

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ladyfriend123: Mmmmm.

britamcsheffery: morning lady friend

ladyfriend123: Are you off monday?

britamcsheffery: nope

ladyfriend123: Damn

ladyfriend123: So I need some advice

britamcsheffery: i wish i kind of want to take it off... been trying to play sick all week.

ladyfriend123: Greenmill sunday, fyi. I'm reading

ladyfriend123: So......anyhoo

britamcsheffery: earlier this week, i thought i was getting pink eye... and now i think i need to start executing a plan.

ladyfriend123: For what?

britamcsheffery: to take a damn day off

ladyfriend123: Ah.

britamcsheffery: i dont just call off... if i want a day off i play sick all week at work and then bam call off... because then everyones like... oh man shes been sick all week.. she needed the day off.

ladyfriend123: Wow. Spicy move

britamcsheffery: yeah its pretty clever.

britamcsheffery: then no one can be like... i bet brit just wanted a day off... nope remember ive been sick all week.

britamcsheffery: funny thing is.. my eye has been dry and red all week, so its the perfect excuse for pink eye, which in all cases means you HAVE to call off due to it contagious demeanor.

She said WHAT??!! #2

Participants:


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ladyfriend123, britamcsheffery



Messages:

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ladyfriend123: Top of the mornin' to ya

britamcsheffery: morning lady friend

ladyfriend123: It nice out. Would be better with the Sun

britamcsheffery: yeah i know. i want to ride my bike, but i fear its even too cold for that.

ladyfriend123: So I think my new blog is getting mixed signals. :(

britamcsheffery: why

ladyfriend123: Yeah. There's steam coming off my coffee outside so prob not a good idea to bike ride

ladyfriend123: Not sure why. Maybe I'm over analyzing

ladyfriend123: I think a lot when I have days off

britamcsheffery: why are you off again

britamcsheffery: i am going to get some coffee hangon.

britamcsheffery: omg

ladyfriend123: Boss took a personal day

britamcsheffery: i gotta tell you about barry

ladyfriend123: Oh god.........

ladyfriend123: He's got the "baby" thing

britamcsheffery: so lemme recap.

britamcsheffery: no.

britamcsheffery: on valentines day, he took me to dinner and i was complaining abotu not getting flowers.. after dinner the flowers were in the car.

ladyfriend123: Mmmmm. K

britamcsheffery: i left them in the car when we went into his house after dinner, and hes like you should probably put them in water.. and i was like nah its okay its cold outside.

britamcsheffery: then i fell asleep and hes lke you realyl need to get your flowers. and i go no its fine ill get them in the morning.

britamcsheffery: well the next day we got into a fight about the damn flowers.. and i was like shove them up your ass i dont want them.

britamcsheffery: yesterday... he picks me up from shopping, and i bring the flowers inside my house... inside there was a card and diamond earrings.

ladyfriend123: So you jumped the gun? Or you didn't really care for the flowers and you expressed your disinterest in the wrong way?

britamcsheffery: no i just figured they were flowers and left them in the car. i didnt know there was a card and earrings hidden inside.

ladyfriend123: So what are your thoughts now?

britamcsheffery: i felt like such an ass hole kim\

ladyfriend123: Its ok. Its just a part of growing. You in a relationship. Let it pass. Learn from it.

britamcsheffery: my thoughts now are... wow here i am being a jerk, thinking this guy only cares about work.

britamcsheffery: and honestly i think he does really care about me (not just because he bought he diamond earrings) but because he does spend his free time with me not his friends.

britamcsheffery: i think personally we are patched up... just need to work on bedroom

ladyfriend123: Well, my thoughts...:

britamcsheffery: sure

ladyfriend123: The "bedroom" manner is at its best when the "non-bedroom" is at its worst. Does that make sense?

britamcsheffery: a little but we never really had any real outside the bedroom problems

ladyfriend123: You learn to make an effort when you have problems. When you try to focus on problems in the relationship you take that effort into the bedroom also. You want to make sure your partner is happy in and out of the bedroom

ladyfriend123: Not saying problems are good. But I don't think they are problems. I think they are obstacles.

ladyfriend123: A learning process

britamcsheffery: good point

ladyfriend123: Try breathing in the bad and ex haling the good

ladyfriend123: I'm excited for saturday meditation. You?

britamcsheffery: yes

ladyfriend123: Good

britamcsheffery: you mean breathing in the good, exhaling the bad

ladyfriend123: No. Opposite. Think about it

ladyfriend123: You breathe in peoples bad, pain and ex hale good onto them

britamcsheffery: it doesnt make sense.

britamcsheffery: thats the selfless way of looking at it... where as i guess i am looking at it selfishly

ladyfriend123: Anyone is strong enough to take on someone elses pain and release theirr good energy back. Its not your pain so you shouldn't have to hold onto it

ladyfriend123: But in turn give it back as good energy

britamcsheffery: im way confused...

ladyfriend123: Ok. Example. Your "pain" with Barry is not mine but when you tell me what you're feeling and the "pain" you have, I take it in. In turn I give you back "good". You release your "pain" onto me and I in turn make it into something "good".

britamcsheffery: recycling

ladyfriend123: Exactly

britamcsheffery: oh i see.

ladyfriend123: Its a new phase for me. Training the mind. I feel good taking this on...refocusing the mind, ya know

britamcsheffery: right now yahoo said you were hammering out a wicked comeback

ladyfriend123: Hahahahahahahahaha!!

ladyfriend123: There it is...

britamcsheffery: i am pretty good at refocusing. i just tend to go off the rails some times. which is when i lock my self away.

ladyfriend123: Yeah, but what can you learn from doing that? To lock yourself away more?

ladyfriend123: That's not fun

britamcsheffery: no i just like to center myself.

britamcsheffery: i find that if i have unfinished business mentally, going out puts it on the back burner and gets stored in the vault... which causes for bigger break downs.

ladyfriend123: And more stress. You need to release that.

britamcsheffery: yeah well i want to kick box or something.

britamcsheffery: fight.

britamcsheffery: do you know they have women mma

ladyfriend123: Oh god....that makes me nervous you know that. There can only be one Kimbo Slice here girly

britamcsheffery: yeah i know.

britamcsheffery: i kind of want to do mma.

britamcsheffery: but id have a lot of training to do.

britamcsheffery: so it just makes me want to fight.

ladyfriend123: Yeah. Find another way to clear your mind

britamcsheffery: hm.

britamcsheffery: sorry was busy for a min.

britamcsheffery: how are you getting to meditation

ladyfriend123: Blueline