"Le Poids Des Mots"....(a trip down Memory-Lane)

I have heard the cry of the Angels once again.

Speak to me in a tone and a Voice that only i would know.

A Life spent apart is a Life worth finding.

Once two bodies meet there are forever apart of one another.

waiting for the right moment to escape into a realm that neither you nor i have ever seen is the reason for our patience.

Excitement.

Fear.

Drowning in one another.

All more the better.

Emotions are apart of Life.

Without them we are only better six feet under.

in the ground is where we will meet.

Two lives separated.

Two lives brought together only in Words.

Nothing more.

The Fly on my wall has such a great view.

How is it i can not see what He sees?

i stare at the empty pill bottle and wonder who i am.

is it me?

or is it you?

Take away my Beauty

Take away my mind

Take away my Soul

Take away my Fears

Take away my Doubt

Take me Away

Just don't Leave Me...

You arouse My utmost Desires


You are Special , are you not.





I have no Idea about You


Nor Do I want to know more than I already Know.





I saw you Today.


Your Face as we passed made me Laugh.


Kinda like that Snort Laugh I do, when I drink.


Ha


Yeah, You know that one.


You have Heard it a Million Times.





So?


When do We End This?


Have we Even Begun?





You are Silly.





I Just got Shivers all Up and Down my Spine.


Glad To see I can Still Feel





Ha


There's that Snort Laugh Again.




So I Like her Name.

Very Pretty.

I thought of her When I saw You today.

Might say, I am Glad you did Not Notice me.

How could you? You have only seen me UnClothed.

That Laugh Again.



The Mind is a Powerful thing to Waste.

Stop Wasting Yours; and My Batteries.

Lost Footage...

Untitled from Kimberly A. Bennett on Vimeo.

The Heat Makes Everything Burn.
The Soul Burns to Capture a Moment Never Capable of Becoming.
My Hands Burn because of there over development during the Wee Late Hours Alone in My Room.
My Thumb pierced from Glass Leaving Me once again in Pain.
The unresponsive Chatter that comes out of your Mouth every time we Speak.
The Truth that Will always Lie.
Oh My Dear, please. Do not worry for me. I Need Not worry for You.

Your Discomposed words make me Laugh.
Your inability to understand Who and What we are; When We are, How we Are.
Your stupidity for Capturing a Moment on Film makes me Laugh.
Your desire to Pronounce Life in a Photo , a photo that shall Never Be Alive.

Your Ability to Tell me what I Want to Hear, and not what I need to Hear.
Your Lacking of Manliness, overruled by your Desire to be Desirable.
Your overuse of Words only you Understand.
Your unconscious Actions due to your Demeaning Childhood.
Your Faith and Desire I no Longer Feel For.
Your inadequate Ways of Living, Speaking, Believing, Fucking how you Like and not How I Like.

I have spent too much Time Lying.
I have spent too much time Trying
I have spent too much time Misbehaving.
I have spent too much time trying to Understand a mystery that has no understanding.

I was Captured in a Moment; only brief.

I sit in Silence and Silence is what I choose.
The Calming of No Words, No Sound, No Voice, No Heart Beat.
This Calms Me.

The door is Closed Tonight....

"I Have Been Quiet...This is the Only way I Like it"

Truth Lies In the Eyes of the Beholder

There is Always Truth in a Lie.

I extend the Truth because I want them to be Lies.

Truth Is?- I am Fuckin done with all this.

Fuck. I'm Really Not... And the Story continues.......



The Next Night
The Black Dress was a Success. Not the Success i was Hoping for, but it Did me Justice. The Heels though? Damn, those Heels. They Make or Break it and they definitely Made it.

So, the Shy, Relentless One called: Date number Two. Was he looking to please himself more in my presence or was he looking to astound me with his mannerisms and chivalry?
No Dinner this Time. Straight to it. I informed him before he came over, so He not judge me, that i was looking to Fill a Void. A Void that I take and still take quite seriously. He called....He was intrigued. "Let me tell you something , my friend. We are all animals, correct? The body aches. The body needs to Digest Whole what it really needs. We are only Human Animals trying to find some acceptance in this world by fulfilling our utmost desires.Its only Human Nature, correct?"He agreed and understood what i was Looking for and When i wanted it. He maneuvered His schedule and came over the next night.

I lay with my head in his lap enjoying the clean smell of manliness that wafted from his sweat pants. I wanted to taste him, needed to feel him swell between my lips, needed to hear him moan in satisfaction as he raised his hips to meet my mouth. I licked my lips as I thought of how it felt when he exploded in waves in my mouth as I struggled to swallow all that he could produce. I adored him for that Single Moment and yearned for him. I couldn't take it anymore I throbbed with want for him. I needed him inside of me. I slid my body up his, my lips touching his in a kiss filled with lust. I moaned in anticipation of the pleasure I was to receive. He raked his fingernails up my ass cheeks and I inhaled deeply.My mind exploded at the pleasure of him filling me completely. He wrapped his arms around me and pounded sending me over the edge. I moaned his name as he whispered in my ear telling me to cum for him. I slumped against his chest heaving sighs of satisfaction.


The Night Was over and Done...As Was I.
There wouldnt be a Second Time. I'Promised Him this before He Left. He seemed Upset...

I Left The Door Open Again That Night.... You Should Have Been There....

For Her...My Dear

I'm not a stranger
No, I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

A fragile frame aged
With misery
And when our eyes meet
I know you see

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am "cut"

I may seem crazy
Or painfully shy
And these scars wouldn't be so hidden
If you would just look me in the eye
I feel alone here and cold here
Though I don't want to die
But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside

{Your Pain}

I am not alone

My tears still drip