oh how i become inspired to write every time i look at you.
oh how i imagine what your body would look like next to mine

i imagine how you would correct my punctuation
i imagine how you would taste in my mouth
i imagine how your skin would feel on mine
i imagine the words that would escape your mouth and inspire my ears
i imagine what makes you laugh
i imagine walking next to you and feeling the same breeze
i imagine what your voice sounds like after a few Bourbons
i imagine if you would find me weird that i like to hide away in my room
i imagine if you will judge me on what i look like
i imagine what your first words will be to me
i imagine if you snore at night
i imagine if you like to laugh and what your laugh may sound like
i imagine if you like to sleep with the light on or off
i imagine if you eat with your mouth open or closed
i imagine if you would appreciate my body as i do
i imagine if you will hate my parents at times as much as i do
i imagine what your first "lie" to me will be
i imagine if you will recognize me 10 years from now
i imagine if you will wipe my tears
i imagine if you will hold my hair back
i imagine if you will "pull" my hair
i imagine if you will inspire me to be who i have always wanted to be
i imagine if i will inspire you to be who you have always wanted to be
i imagine if you will take me to places i have never seen
i imagine if you will take my body to places it has never seen
i imagine if you will get me to take a smoke again
i imagine if you will understand the fact i enjoy a good beer once in awhile
i imagine if you will understand my life
i imagine if you will make me loose my voice in Ecstasy
i imagine if you will find places on me that i have yet to find
i imagine if you will run your hands through my hair and tell me "yeah, you are OK"
i imagine if you will take me to where you feel safe
i imagine if you tell me my writing is AWFUL
i imagine if you will tell me i am beautiful
i imagine if you would like to dance to me
i imagine if you will be playful with me
i imagine if you will be rude to me
i imagine if you will tell me i am a Bitch
i imagine if you will call me just so i can hear you breathe
i imagine you taking a bath with me
i imagine you walking with me
i imagine you telling me to "jump on"
i imagine you telling me you hate me
i imagine you being you and nothing else
i imagine the beauty that surrounds you and why i can not be there. it makes me sad
i imagine if you can keep your word or not young soul
i imagine if you feel as old as i do in this body
i imagine if you will respect my body as i will respect yours
i imagine if you will ever be tempted to tempt me
i imagine if you will make me laugh once more

I imagine you. at any given time.

There are theives, who rob us blind,
and kings, who kill us fine,
but steady, the rights and the wrongs
invade us, as innocent song.
I'm not ready, I'm not ready
For the weight of us, for the weight of all of us.

There's a cold heart, burried beneath,
and warm blood, running deep.
Secrets - are mine to keep
protected by silent sleep
I'm not ready,

The time has come, let us be brave....
Shake off all of your sins, the time has come....

Tout le monde est une drôle de personne,
Et tout le monde a l'âme emmêlée,
Tout le monde a de l'enfance qui ronronne,
Au fond d'une poche oubliée,
Tout le monde a des restes de rêves,
Et des coins de vie dévastés

Il faudrait que tout l'monde réclame auprès des autorités,
Une loi contre toute notre solitude,
Que personne ne soit oublié,
Et que personne ne soit oublié

Il faudrait que tout l'monde réclame auprès des autorités,
Une loi contre toute notre indifférence,
Que personne ne soit oublié,
Et que personne ne soit oublié.

Tout le monde est une drôle de personne,
Et tout le monde a une âme emmêlée,
Tout le monde a de l'enfance qui résonne,
Au fond d'une heure oubliée,

Translation:

everyone is a strange sort of person
and everyone's got a mixed up soul
everyone has a childhood that hums
deep inside a forgotten pocket
everyone has dream remnants
and devasted corners of lives
one day everyone looked for something
but everyone found nothing


everyone should demand from the authorities
a law that casts out our solitude
so that no one is forgotten
and that no one is forgotten

everyone has one life that is passing
but no one remembers
i see those who fold, and even break it
and those who don't even see it

everyone is a strange sort of person
and everyone's got a mixed up soul
everyone has a childhood that echoes
deep inside a forgotten hour

Please play Me

-Walking down Western i feel you behind me on my back; i fall in love with you all over again

-When I lay in my bed and listen to the music that you have left for me; i fall in love with you all over again

-When you show me the amazing wonders you have tucked away inside, i fall in love with you all over again

-Your past; i fall in love with you all over again

-Your History; i fall in love with you all over again

-Your different languages that you speak to me in on a daily basis; i fall in Love with you all over again

-The grass you let me roll around in and be playful once more; i fall in love with you all over again

-The sweet taste of your inner indulgence; i fall in love with you all over again

-The daily ride on the El where i can whisper delicate sweet nothings to you; i fall in love with you all over again

-The pictures you let me take of you to capture your underlying beauty; i fall in love with you all over again

-The place you give me to lay my head at night and dream of never ending stories that we will share; i fall in love with you all over again

-The smells of teak and musk and amber on you; i fall in love with you all over again

-The intimacy you show me as you run through my hair in the dark; i fall in love with you all over again

-The hidden book stores you take me to on my daily explorations; i fall in love with you all over again

-The forbidden sounds you let me scream out when i am alone and at my best; i fall in love with you all over again

-The piano you brought to me when i was only able to crawl; i fall in love with you all over again.

-When you speak; i fall in love with you all over again

-When I roll my bare feet over you; i fall in Love with you all over again

-When you write or read to me your utmost desires; i fall in Love with you all over again

-When you give me the option to judge you for myself and say not a word; i fall in love with you all over again

-When you cause me to stay up late hoping i wont miss a thing you might do; i fall in love with you all over again

-When you introduce me to strangers; i fall in love with you all over again.

Oh, my dear Chicago; everyday I fall in love with you You are my Home; my Haven; My World...

Will you bring me something new?

Magic

i sit here in the dark and listen to the sirens outside my window and i pray that i am still here to pray. I enjoy the dark. i enjoy my away time, my time away from all the chaos outside my door. i can be myself in here and not the person you expect me to be. obstacles are coming to a point where i can not figure out how deep i have dug. i can not find you so therefore; i can not find myself. you are a ghost. a ghost i say. an invisible force that i will never have the honor of starring into eyes. Eyes-of madness. Eyes of fear. You are scarred correct? that is what hold s you back; or maybe it is your "preference" based on your Circe of "friends"? ? ? or maybe just your preference of the female body? or maybe your preference?
When I think of you i imagine you to be narcissistic; flattered by your own form. i imagine you look in the mirror and say "wow" i am desirable. Women:Men want me and they have yet no idea who i really am inside. I know who you are enigma. Your internal bleeding is that of your soul which has been broken. you have been broken, as myself, so many times that it becomes a part of you. no worries..it is what you were met to do. its how you are meant to feel.
i shut the door and imagine smells of soap as your distinct aroma. you know that smell that when you say it sounds strange but when you smell it; it evolves into a smile across the face. ? ? ?

Oh the anger. is this anger? i hope you re seeing this straight because i am not.
time to play..lets try to keep it less dark and more "fake"..

behind Closed doors

its a repeated pattern. A or B A or B A or B A or BA or B A or B A or B A or B. I choose the latter; C./ How was i to know she was sitting at home sick on the couch eating bon bons watching a classic black and white while i sat across from him at a dinner? is it my fault my company is enjoyed as much as it is? im not shallow but i am not a wet blanket either. i am just one person; maybe its my teeth; they are pretty nice. or its the CANVAS attached to my thighs? who knows.. Oh dont get me wrong i knew she was sitting at home; pondering...i still cant get the grin off my face even as i write this. it wasnt the first time and my dear it will not be the last. does that make me a devious person? Yes, yes it does and i like it. i deserve what i want and when i want it. dont we all? some of us are just better at surpressing the things we really want in fear of how we will be judged. this life only happened once. dont even have to ask anymore; i already know from the moment i meet you.

but its all good fun right? nothing personal. no committments. no predestined outcomes. no judgements. no fighting. no favors. no sharing. no picking eachothers brain. no meeting the parents. no kids. no wondering what ifs. no doubting. no guilt. no nonsence.

break me down all you like. i was broken way before you arrived and will remain long after you have left. who are you you narcasistic fool? WHO ARE YOU>?

i have two sides also mystery man....

When I woke up I was 17 -You kissed my lips in a bad bad dream-Showed me things aren't what they appear to be -Called me angel and set me free
-You gave me life in the cold cold dark-But you ran away in the mornings spark-Made me think that reality Is not where I want to be-I am what I am and-I am what I am-afraid of-Oh what am I afraid of?-I need a fearless love-Don't need to fear the end-If you can't hold me now-You will never hold me again-I want to live my life-Pursuing all my happiness-I want a fearless love-I won't settle for anything less
I've walked my path had worlds collide-I lost my way and I fooled my pride-This lover's ache wouldn't feel so strange-If I could only change-Now I'm not here to lay the blame-I understand when you hold a flame-Heads will shake heads will turn
And sometimes you just get burned-------