Dear Sir,
Ive have been thinking all morning of something clever. I normally aim to please, but I need to be frank first.
I am not your ordinary woman. I am not a submissive type. I am a working hard professional, independent and very aggressive. As you can tell, I am not shy. Not one bit. I hold back on nothing. I am the aggressor. I am the the Dominant. I am always in control. I know what I want, what I like and will do anything to get my way. Now, now don't be turned off by this. I am not looking to play your role, I am looking to stop playing it. I for once want to satisfy my craving for "letting go" as some say. I am looking to be, for once, the submissive. I am tired of always being the one in control. I have everything I want in life, except fulfillment in my fantasies. This is my fantasy, to ones only, and I will do anything to achieve that.
I just want to let go.
Now, I can play this role, not because its suited for me in everyday life, but because I find my self sexual overwhelmed by letting go of the reins and leaving the control to another. I am aggressive in my sexual nature. I don't make love, I fuck. I want the aggression, I want to feel it in every fucking inch of my body. I want to be dominated, because this only, will satisfy me.
I am not one either to share my submissiveness with other sub-missives. I know you may frown upon this, but I say it not due to my experimentation in threesomes, but because when I am being fucked, I want all the attention. I do not like to share, therefore I will not.
I am willing to explore all possibilities in this nature with you. I can promise I do not disappoint, but I will not go out of my way to prove my passion, because I know you will not be disappointed.
Now I have my hard limits and my soft limits. I will not take part in anything anally, or any type of fisting. Besides that being said. I am open to ANYTHING else. I am also open to taking my punishment for not pleasing you in whole. I think we all should be punished for not pleasuring correctly. Dont you agree?
I want to save bedroom manner for the bedroom. I am an exhibitionist. I like to take the risk and I don't mind if I am caught. I enjoy being taken advantage of and being used to where I can not even walk the next day. I enjoy touch, light or hard and will never say stop. (although, I do believe in "safe" words as an option if you don't mind)
Now if all of this has kept you intrigued, even wondering anything about me; I'd be glad to hear back from you. If not, good luck in your endevours. But, if you choose to play...you know where to find me Sir.
Till then,
Friday, May 11, 2012
Friday, May 4, 2012
In Another Life...
In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
In another life
We'd keep all our promises
Be us against the world
Looking out from underneath,
Fractured moonlight on the sea
Reflections still look the same to me,
And it's peaceful in the deep,
Cathedral where you cannot breathe,
No need to pray, no need to speak
Now I am under.
Found the place to rest my head.
End Scene....
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
In another life
We'd keep all our promises
Be us against the world
Looking out from underneath,
Fractured moonlight on the sea
Reflections still look the same to me,
And it's peaceful in the deep,
Cathedral where you cannot breathe,
No need to pray, no need to speak
Now I am under.
Found the place to rest my head.
End Scene....
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
Dont cry baby
This is how the story went
I met someone by accident
Who blew me away
Blew me away
And It was in the darkest of my days
When you took my sorrow and you took my pain
And buried them away with yours.
I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
You'll disappear one day
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away
becasue that is the way it is intended.
Woke up feeling heavy hearted
I'm going back to where I started
The morning rain.
Its been raining here for days.
Someone is crying
It isnt me
I met someone by accident
Who blew me away
Blew me away
And It was in the darkest of my days
When you took my sorrow and you took my pain
And buried them away with yours.
I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
You'll disappear one day
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away
becasue that is the way it is intended.
Woke up feeling heavy hearted
I'm going back to where I started
The morning rain.
Its been raining here for days.
Someone is crying
It isnt me
Smiles
When will I see you again?
You left with no goodbye,
Not a single word was said,
No final kiss to seal any sins
I had no idea of the state we were in.
I know I have a fickle heart and a bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and heaviness in my head.
When was the last time you thought of me?
Or have you completely erased me from your memory?
Gave you the space so you could breathe,
I kept my distance so you would be free,
And hoped that you'd find the missing piece.
You left with no goodbye,
Not a single word was said,
No final kiss to seal any sins
I had no idea of the state we were in.
I know I have a fickle heart and a bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and heaviness in my head.
When was the last time you thought of me?
Or have you completely erased me from your memory?
Gave you the space so you could breathe,
I kept my distance so you would be free,
And hoped that you'd find the missing piece.
Monday, April 23, 2012
Hard Enough
You let me into your life on a whim
And there was magic and fire in the night
In loving I was just a little girl
I made mistakes that caused you so much pain
All I know is that I'm older now
Some people think that it's best to refrain from the conventions of old-fashioned lust
Their hearts are filled with holes and emptiness
They tell themselves that they're too young to settle down
And this has been hard enough on you
I know it's been hard enough on me
Been telling myself that I can roll with the changes
And when the water gets high above your head
Darling don't you see,
While this has been hard enough on you
It's been hard enough on me
I wasn't looking when we built these walls
Let me spread my dreams at your feet
Let’s not let time’s bitter flood rise
Before my thoughts begin to run
Can't stand the thought of another, talking to you
Where would I be tonight if you hadn't held me here, in your arms?
And there was magic and fire in the night
In loving I was just a little girl
I made mistakes that caused you so much pain
All I know is that I'm older now
Some people think that it's best to refrain from the conventions of old-fashioned lust
Their hearts are filled with holes and emptiness
They tell themselves that they're too young to settle down
And this has been hard enough on you
I know it's been hard enough on me
Been telling myself that I can roll with the changes
And when the water gets high above your head
Darling don't you see,
While this has been hard enough on you
It's been hard enough on me
I wasn't looking when we built these walls
Let me spread my dreams at your feet
Let’s not let time’s bitter flood rise
Before my thoughts begin to run
Can't stand the thought of another, talking to you
Where would I be tonight if you hadn't held me here, in your arms?
B. Flowers
Look back in silence; the cradle of your whole life.
There in the distance, losing its greatest prize.
Nothing is easy, nothing is sacred.
Why?
Where did the bough break?
It happened before your time.
There were people there, lovely as you've ever cared.
Tonight.
you can start again.
Laughing in the open air; have yourself another dream.
Only the young can break away...
Lost when the wind blows; on your own
Mother its cold here. Father thy will be done.
Thunder and lightening are crashing down.
They got me on the run, direct me to the sun.
Redemption keeps my covers clean tonight.
Saturday, February 25, 2012
Only Truth...
I wanted to start this as a letter out to a certain someone but I think that ghost can be found in its content.
I am not one to be personal on my thoughts but there comes a time here and there where the keys on my computer write for themselves and I express my thoughts in words.
My Karma has destroyed me.
Let there only be truth in my words and not doubt. i wont let you close enough to hurt me. I have struggled for over 7 years. Every man i have let my guard down to has hurt me. Its not my fault, i know this, and i know you can relate. Why do we choose to suffer chasing someone we know will end up upsetting or hurting us? I'm over this phase.,,,,
About a week ago today, i realized, actually it was Valentines day, go figure. i had chose to take a path to climb a mountain with a man who, mind you, I never thought I would, that changed my Life. i overcame my fear. I overcame my fear of heights. I cried. Not only cried, but let myself cry in front of another. I am so strong, so independent, so sane, but I had to let go. I have never in my life experienced that before. And looking on it now, I would have not asked to accomplish something like that without this person. He is the only person I could actually let go with. He is a true, decent friend. It is someone who always remember me, and has never let me down. It was like he was sent to me to help me overcome my fear. Not only a fear of heights, but a fear of letting go.
This is how the story went
I met someone by accident
Who blew me away
Blew me away
And It was in the darkest of my days
When you took my sorrow and you took my pain
And buried them away, buried them away
Coming down that mountain, I had a moment. The sun was setting and the colors were changing from green and blue to red and black. I thought of you, and there I knew, I no longer needed you. You were suppose to be in that moment with me, but you were absent. I broke down. I cried for the first time in over 7 years. Then, the source that got me to that point came and held me. Its men like that, sources like that that need recognition. It wasn't a moment between the source and I but a conclusion between you and I.
That was the last time I would think of you.
That was the first time I would not look for someone like you, but for someone like my Source.
Amazing and competent are the only two words I can think of to describe this person. Fucked up? Yes, aren't we all, but genuine, decent and sincere. In lames terms he is Real. Hard to find. I feel so sorry for the women who breaks his heart everyday. It saddens me that he cant see me like he sees her. Everyone deserves the happiness and fun we shared.
Wake me up.
I am awake and even though I cant do it on my own I am willing to take the risk.
I can not put into words the definition of passion that came from my recent trip.
People do not change.
They only learn to interpret
What I need
I need an opposite that will attract
I need someone who is loving in nature
I need someone who is strongly imaginative and determined and aims high in Life.
Someone who possesses a traditional value towards women, especially his woman.
Someone who quite charming but has a clever mind at the same time.
Someone who fulfills all the qualities I lack.
Someone who cools my surface and makes me feel secure and loved.
I am a practical woman with wise opinions and a generous heart that is always ready to help.
My determination is strong which is topped by my sensible manner.
I am ready to sacrifice my personal needs for you.
I am always a faithful partner whom any man can remain content in his Life.
I admire your qualities and i will Help you in exhibiting them whenever needed.
I am devoted enough to melt your insecurities.
I can provide answers to all your questions put across.
I know you have delicate feelings and emotions. I respect that.
Our intamacy will be an experience that will make everthing else look more beautiful.
Our experience will be both extremely deep and fullfilling as possibe as being opposite in nature, the attraction is certainly powerful and passionate.
I promise to show my compassionate side more often to you.....
To be continued....
Stop looking and open your eyes
I am not one to be personal on my thoughts but there comes a time here and there where the keys on my computer write for themselves and I express my thoughts in words.
My Karma has destroyed me.
Let there only be truth in my words and not doubt. i wont let you close enough to hurt me. I have struggled for over 7 years. Every man i have let my guard down to has hurt me. Its not my fault, i know this, and i know you can relate. Why do we choose to suffer chasing someone we know will end up upsetting or hurting us? I'm over this phase.,,,,
About a week ago today, i realized, actually it was Valentines day, go figure. i had chose to take a path to climb a mountain with a man who, mind you, I never thought I would, that changed my Life. i overcame my fear. I overcame my fear of heights. I cried. Not only cried, but let myself cry in front of another. I am so strong, so independent, so sane, but I had to let go. I have never in my life experienced that before. And looking on it now, I would have not asked to accomplish something like that without this person. He is the only person I could actually let go with. He is a true, decent friend. It is someone who always remember me, and has never let me down. It was like he was sent to me to help me overcome my fear. Not only a fear of heights, but a fear of letting go.
This is how the story went
I met someone by accident
Who blew me away
Blew me away
And It was in the darkest of my days
When you took my sorrow and you took my pain
And buried them away, buried them away
Coming down that mountain, I had a moment. The sun was setting and the colors were changing from green and blue to red and black. I thought of you, and there I knew, I no longer needed you. You were suppose to be in that moment with me, but you were absent. I broke down. I cried for the first time in over 7 years. Then, the source that got me to that point came and held me. Its men like that, sources like that that need recognition. It wasn't a moment between the source and I but a conclusion between you and I.
That was the last time I would think of you.
That was the first time I would not look for someone like you, but for someone like my Source.
Amazing and competent are the only two words I can think of to describe this person. Fucked up? Yes, aren't we all, but genuine, decent and sincere. In lames terms he is Real. Hard to find. I feel so sorry for the women who breaks his heart everyday. It saddens me that he cant see me like he sees her. Everyone deserves the happiness and fun we shared.
Wake me up.
I am awake and even though I cant do it on my own I am willing to take the risk.
I can not put into words the definition of passion that came from my recent trip.
People do not change.
They only learn to interpret
What I need
I need an opposite that will attract
I need someone who is loving in nature
I need someone who is strongly imaginative and determined and aims high in Life.
Someone who possesses a traditional value towards women, especially his woman.
Someone who quite charming but has a clever mind at the same time.
Someone who fulfills all the qualities I lack.
Someone who cools my surface and makes me feel secure and loved.
I am a practical woman with wise opinions and a generous heart that is always ready to help.
My determination is strong which is topped by my sensible manner.
I am ready to sacrifice my personal needs for you.
I am always a faithful partner whom any man can remain content in his Life.
I admire your qualities and i will Help you in exhibiting them whenever needed.
I am devoted enough to melt your insecurities.
I can provide answers to all your questions put across.
I know you have delicate feelings and emotions. I respect that.
Our intamacy will be an experience that will make everthing else look more beautiful.
Our experience will be both extremely deep and fullfilling as possibe as being opposite in nature, the attraction is certainly powerful and passionate.
I promise to show my compassionate side more often to you.....
To be continued....
Stop looking and open your eyes
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