The End is Near, yet My Beginning is Coming (I can Smell it, as Roughly as Your Öld Man Cologne)

I am Leaving for once.
Goddamn how long it has been
i am willing to extrude in a New city
i am going to do things You only dream of
I am getting wet just thinking of it

I Leave one to find Another
I am deeply sorrowed
This city only brings Doubt
Gay
Smell
Pity
Pathetic Nature

I met someone today
i will meet him again once I return
He has no Fuckin idea what is in store
I grin

You will notice my Hair has changed.
Red
Bright
Red
Like my ass after a good Cockspanking

I can't wait

I'm leaving to find my Meaning
I smile as i write that
Sober

The only thing I am leaving behind this Winter is my Dignity
The worshiping of a God that has never shown you nor I pity
Lets trade thoughts

Smile
Your End is just beginning where Mine has already passed...

I'll see you soon
Wish me Luck Dear Friend.
Be good
Keep your Legs Closed

All my Love
Slice

WED Eve (Part 2)

The rope that's wrapped around me

Is cutting through my skin

And the doubts that have surrounded me

Are finding their way in

I keep it close to me

Like a holy man prays

In my desperate hour

It's better that way

 

 

 

So I'll come by and see you again

I'll be such a very good friend


Have mercy on my soul


I will never let you know


Where my mind has been......
 
 
 
 

I've crept into your temple

I have slept upon your pew

I've dreamed of the divinity

Inside and out of you

I want it more than truth

I can taste it on my breath

I would give my life just for a little death

 

I will not look upon your face

I will not touch upon your grace


Your ecclesiastic skin



If I whisper they will know



I'll just turn around and go


You will never know my sin



WED Eve

oh, the Solitude
The never ending need to not be alone
sitting here
Dinner again, for one
My mind is the only thing that speaks to me

Step out of the body
Loose the mind
Take control of all that is left behind....

Technology lies
Anything that can be plugged into the wall is not worth calling a "friend"

Why can you not hear me?
I'm screaming in Silence at the Top of my Lungs
What I have left of them
Please


Party for one....

Mother, Masturbation is only Temporary

I am generating Heat.
I touch My face and it Burns.
She filled you with Fear
Sin.

I burn
Let me in

Where is this all coming From?
Why am I feeling like this?
Why are you feeling like this?
Show me your passion
Your Heat
Your Desire

Do you have any left?


Why is there a need?
What happened to controlling it?

Its curiosity.

I'm being Selfish once again....

Its just skin.
Its meant for this
Touching
Licking
Scratching
Wiping your Tears
Rendering you incapable of Moving
Disposing of what you think your Mother wants you to be
What she wants You to be
I'm not Mocking you
I'm generating your Pulse

Fuck your consequences

Regrets are a waste of Passion
Regrets are a waste of the Mind
Regrets are a waste of your time.
My time.


What was my name Again?



This is me being Nice.

The Door is Open....
Tonight, I feel so Weak

Signed,
"The Devil's Daughter"

(GRINDING) In the Classy Way, of Course....

I'm Wet.
I keep thinking of You.
Not you.
You.

Touch me that Once and everything else is all hazy.
I want you.
Again.

I can't keep doing this alone.
It's getting Boring.
Rubbing
Fasting
Rubbing
Holding the pillow over my head.
No one else is in this room.

Be careful not to wake the Children

1

2

3

4

5

6

7

8

9 Times

I guess I'm picky with fucking

Well baby I give it up
it's you I could choose
don't keep me waiting

This girl's got things she needs to do




Speak on it
tell me what you need

Put your hands on me baby

Can't stop my mind from thinking of you

How am I supposed to function

Got me feelin' for your lips on my kiss
my lower Hips


Can Not stop throbbing
Release Me
Now

All night

I'm hungry

I want and I need

pour it all over me

Up till now my eyes could see

Touch me once and it's all hazy

I don't know why and I don't know how

But somehow some way you got me

I can't explain
can't comprehend 



Finish What You Started

QUICKIE...

I am loosing my Mind. So is my Bed. where. I lay. The knocking the screaming. the excitement. The Laughter. The gnawing. The Last breath that comes right after you finish. The everlasting Sleep.

I miss this..

Dinner for one.....

bury me deep. deep in the sand. would you like the honors? its coming. no need to get sad. you will have plenty of time to think about this once i am gone. am i worried? no. i never wanted a funeral. i always wanted a pool party instead. i hate the water. i want people to rejoice. play. be happy. make Love. your sadness makes me sad. i am not sad. you should not be either. the things that have happened have happened for a reason. we started dying the minute we were born. some of us faster than others. im going somewhere far away.simple things will matter. the wind in my hair. the sun on my skin. the breath in my lungs. the slightest touch. the everlasting kiss. its somewhere close. somewhere where words mean nothing. the written word means nothing. all of this will pass. time heals Everything. there will be people there lovely as ever before. they will laugh with me. dream with me. they want to start over again just as i do. the  no need for drugs anymore. no need for Help anymore. no need for pity. lost. lost no more. look back in Silence. i so wished i would have done things differently. well not really. im a fighter. i fight. Hard. so many things i would have changed. this part of Life is over. nothing is easy. i broke my Vow. long ago. we all can start again. all of us can be Young once more. there comes a point in life where you just have to accept things for the way they Play out. the sign was there and you walked right past it. look up. its all around you. be patient. enjoy what is around you. enjoy the bad. learn from it. walk away but never forget. Smile.... something better is waiting for You...

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I wish you could see this smile on my Lips....

I can't think of anymore to Say...